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2004-06-09 - 1:52 p.m. I hate surfing the crimson wave. Hate. I feel totally disgusting, and on top of that I gained 3 pounds. I guess I should have expected that, but come on. Friggin scale. Friggin body. Also, it’s supposed to be 94 today, and I’m once again reminded of how much it really sucks to be fat during the summer. I saw some girl at the bus stop today wearing a red skirt, flip-flops and a tank top. She looked utterly comfortable, and cute on top of it. No matter what I put on, I feel/look like a sweaty landmonster. The good thing is all my summer clothes from last year don’t fit. The bad thing is all my summer clothes from last year don’t fit. Losing weight is damn expensive. And it’s weird, because now that I’m like…60 pounds lighter than last year, I still feel like a fat fuck, fatter than before. How is that possible? So I might be picking my goal weight with WW soon. At first, I looked at their “ranges” and I started to get scared, thinking I’d never get to even the highest range of my height. But I’m thinking that’s bullshit. I can get there. It’s not like I need to be 113 pounds or something. Being nearly 5’10” has its advantages. I think maybe I was like, afraid of failure or not reaching it and whatnot, but I’ve done pretty well when I really apply myself. So I’ll get there eventually. For now, I just wanna not sabotage myself this week, which is damn difficult considering this whole crimson wave thing. Curves tonight. OP: yes water: yes |
