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navigation pounds lost: 6.8 contact Last 5 rings
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2004-06-17 - 9:44 a.m. Yesterday was disgustingly humid. I went out walking anyway, though. By the time I got home, I was sweating like a hog. I always try and picture myself sweating off lard, and it makes me feel better. I have to buy a bathing suit/beach stuff at some point soon. I’m going on vacation with my family in July and can’t exactly go swimming in jeans. I hate having to buy bathing suits. I’m trying to remind myself that if I keep on keeping on, this will be the last traumatic year in that arena, but it’s not really helping. They always seem to make the most hideous bathing suits in the bigger sizes. Either it’s a granny bathing suit with a frilly fucking skirt around your waist, or it’s a tankini or something. I usually end up going into the water wearing layers, which is pretty sad. I can’t go in without board shorts and some sort of t-shirt on top of my bathing suit. Which makes zero fucking sense swimming-wise, but makes all the difference to me. The funny thing is my little sister always wears a t-shirt over her bathing suit too, and she’s like a size 7. Great, that means this body psychosis thing doesn’t magically stop when you’re a smaller size. I tried to update after my WI, but diaryland is being a whore at the moment, so I gave up. I lost 1.4, and the meeting was actually helpful. We talked about going on vacation and trying to not gain 10 pounds while at it. I’m going away next weekend, so the tips were mostly good. You know how when you’re overweight, you sort of learn the fatty commandments by default? Like don’t suggest going to a buffet, never ask for a super sized meal, cover up rolls at all costs, etc.? Well, some people in my WW meeting missed the course. Sometimes you can ignore a few of them, but not all the damn time. I mean, it might be nice to totally not give a shit. But some of the things they say, it’s like they’re lucky there aren’t any skinny people around. For example, this woman was saying how the first thing she did when she got to a hotel was ask to have a refrigerator in her room. I could almost hear the snickers in my mind. Talk about table 9. Things on the food front are fine. Luckily when it’s hot, I don’t feel like eating a lot of things. Popsicles usually do the trick. I’ve been trying to forget about what Tay said, and it’s better, but it still sucks. I hate the way I can forget everything from stuff I need to buy, to phone numbers, but can’t forget something that sucks so bad. Oh well, I’ll have the last laugh. Onward. OP: yes water: yes |
