2004-10-31 - 2:27 p.m.
i want to go...away
I admit, I'm feeling kind of depressed lately. The positive thing is I've had a couple of days of good eating, and I feel like I'm getting back to where I need to be. However, that doesn't stop the fact that I feel like a fat fuck. I don't know how to make myself feel better, because I've tried. If I'm being honest with myself, I'm hoping I feel better soon, because I briefly considered slim fasting or just not eating much at all. Both methods I know work like shit. Slim-fast should just be renamed "Shit-fast." I mean, I think it's obvious that if you have 2 drinks and 1 meal a day, you're going to lose weight. You don't have to be a fucking nutrionist to figure that out. On top of that, the sensible dinner you get to actually chew leaves your body the minute you stand up after eating. So yeah, thanks slim fast for this revolutionary weight loss technology. $2 a can, eat my ass. Not eating always seems to end in a world record binge, plus you can't not eat forever, so that seems retarded to the rational part of my mind.
Okay, and I'm surfing the crimson wave this week, which always does wonders for the body and self-esteem. I feel like someone stuck a pump up my ass and starting filling me with water (or lard).
So, yeah. I'm trying to write more often, because it does help. Which I'm sure means I'll be having a lot of pointless entries. If babbling helps, fine. Anything to start carving the fat off my ass.
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