2004-11-04 - 11:05 p.m.
just say no
I'm not embarassed to say I had a breakthrough like an hour ago. Okay, so I'm driving home and I'm starving...and like usual, my nighttime weakness kicks in and I'm think about getting some pizza or something. I don't know how, but I just told myself to go home, and if I couldn't live without the damn pizza, I could order it from there. You know how like they tell people trying to quit smoking to wait five minutes until the craving passes? Once I got home, I still wanted it, but then I started watching some show about ancient warrior women and it inspired me to cut it out. I didn't order it and as pathetic a victory as that is, I'm happy. It's been a real struggle at night, lately, so even minor steps are amazing.
I got one of those "get your ass back here" postcards from Weight Watchers today. I've obviously been avoiding going because I've been on the weight gain express, but I'm going back on Tuesday and that's it, I'm not missing another meeting.
I'm still trying to figure out when I can get my exercise in. It's looking more and more like it will have to be mornings for awhile...and that thought makes me want to stab myself with a rusty screwdriver, but I have to do what I have to do. Fucking insufficient daylight.
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