2005-06-22 - 12:09 p.m.
the dropout returns
Going back to WW wasn’t as horrible as I thought it would be. It’s more like a personal humiliation thing in having to sign up for like fifth time. Plus I was feeling crabby and bloated, but I went anyway. I was the only person there, which means I got a one-on-one with the leader for about 10 minutes. It was good, I guess, but it felt like bootleg therapy. Maybe that’s what I need. Anyway, got my materials, and it’s back to counting points for me.
I think I thought that because my motivation was finally where it needed to be that it would somehow be easier. Wrong. It’s just as damn hard as before. I think I must be part werewolf or something, because when night hits, I become this ravenous beast. I’m trying to behave and stop eating around 8-9, but the sweet tooth I’ve been cultivating for the last 23 years is hard to ignore. Ugh.
I would I could trade losing pounds with getting stabbed or punched or something. It would probably be a better method.
I’m hanging in there, though, I know the first week back on track is hard.
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