2005-08-14 - 8:31 p.m.
i was dicking off again. I know, sad.
Uhm, yeah. So I was supposed to be all vigilant with this shit and update like I used to. Except I would have had to write "I fucked up" every day, so I watched television instead.
I'm back because I was slowly starting to rationalize gastric bypass surgery. That's gross and wrong on so many levels for me. First of all, fuck being politically correct, that surgery is for the lazy fucks who don't want to get up off their ASS and lose weight the hard way. Don't give me that bullshit about it "changing your lifestyle." That surgery forces you to eat less by causing you to vomit if you don't, basically. It's like someone putting a gun to your head so you don't eat a donut.
Also, I don't want to be like one of those dumb bastards who actually tries to gain weight to qualify for the surgery (thank god I don't qualify right now). Those people should be drop kicked and sent home.
Finally, my downstairs neighbor informed me one day that while I looked great and she admired me, she couldn't lose weight "my way." She went in to get weight loss surgery last week and is now in a coma, with a flesh eating disease the doctors can't get under control and a host of other problems. Reality check much? Yeah. So.
I've been to 2 weight watchers meetings in a row, which is a major accomplishment these days, and I'm going to try and keep things going. Journalling helps.
Thank god for diet pepsi flavors. People that try and dissuade you from drinking diet soda while dieting can go fuck themselves. One hurdle at a time, please. I need my fucking diet pepsi.
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